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im padme amidala [27 May 2005|07:02pm] [ mood | hot ] You scored as Padme Amidala. </td> Padme Amidala 69% C-3PO 67% Darth Vader 61% Anakin Skywalker 56% Mace Windu 47% Clone Trooper 42% Chewbacca 39% Emperor Palpatine 39% General Grievous 36% Obi Wan Kenobi 36% Yoda 33% R2-D2 28% Which Revenge of the Sith Character are you? created with QuizFarm.com 4 comments|post comment

things i learn from cartoons [07 May 2005|10:57pm] [ mood | contemplative ] i still cant believe that an ordinary cartoon would be able to teach me not to dwell too much on the past and focus on whats present instead. i mean yes i do know that this is true but its actually the first time that this thing really sinked in. i learned that things will never be the same so we shoulndt waste our time trying to make things feel or look the same. everything just comes and goes so we should learn more to appreciate on whats present becuz b4 u know it..it becomes a memory that quickly passed you by.. hayyyy...memoriesss....i miss boraaaaaaaaa...as in superrr as in evrything in bora is super nkakamiss tlg..lalo na yn sound ng waves s shore..yn sunset..yn sand..shux mern 2loy ako naalala abt d sand wahaha nways going back..yn sailing..yn sunrise kht d ko nkta yn sun ngrise..lumiliwanag nlng bgla yn lugar hahaha..yn parties..yn wok..yn d'mol..yn alcohol..yn shisha..yn LONGGA burger! omg! sbrng nkakaadict yn..yn super nyc accesory stal..i wish i cld go bak as in ryt nw! pero ito lng yn thing..pra mas exciting bora...i need a bora flingggggggg...gs2 ko yn sa matino a! yko yn kng knikanino hahaha kc once na lyk ur tipsy and d world starts spinin and getn hazy and blak..fun na to do anything pero sympre mern limit pero anything prn bsta wg lng aabot s stage3 ng kng ano man yn hahahahaha post comment

manghuhula blues [05 May 2005|11:51pm] [ mood | confused ] if everything can be predicted and if everything that is happening or that has happened is/are already planned..y do we still have to live it? what is its purpose? in the process of the thing called "happening"..do we still have the choice to twist the events and play with destiny? or is the process itself of us making a choice already been foreseen also? there is saying that says evrything that is happening right now has already been planned and all we have to do is understand why that certain thing happened. for me this is one of the sayings that is easy to understand but very very hard to do. for example..what if the one that you love so much, loves someone else? and when you think that maybe he's not right for you then when will be the right time to meet mr.right? how will you knw that the person you are with at that moment is mr.right or just plain mr.right now? why do we have to get hurt so bad before we finally meet mr.right or worse comes to worse..y do we have to get hurt so so so much when we're not destined to meet mr.right after all.. another scenario.. what if you are in this certain course in college and it is giving you such a hard time. you are failing badly yet you think that you already know so much that it can get you to places far more than your professors can imagine. i mean bill gates is a drop out yet he became like one of the most powerful and richest man alive. how will you know that the knowledge inside your brain is already enough to fulfill your dreams or is ego and pride just taking control all over your brain? y do you have to experience the hardship of studying super duper hard when most of the people who reached their goals and dreams are drop-outs anyway how can we fully understand the things that are happening and how will you know what the next step is? is living all about understanding? questions..questions..too many questions.. post comment

tabloid cheezums [27 Apr 2005|11:12pm] [ mood | drunk ] what els is new wid d ica-xs crowd..all the latest chismis gets kalat in just a blink of an eye. ryt nw i dnt even knw if i shud get afected or anythng but nways wtver d story may be..d only factual story i know is dt i had fun..got wasted..and nw i dnt rly remember d specific details abt wt hapend during dat tym. although... i am kinda curious abt d details of d cheezums dats spredn ryt nw..or is d story just a simple general kinda thing wid no specific details abt it?? hmm..jst curious nways at least i knw im bein tokd abt..ddnt knw i was dt special pla..laugh! haha just kidin fil lyk im in d tabloids or sumthn haha but nways myb im just overreactin..my mind has been thinkin 2 much..AGEN..haha sugestion: wt if der was a tabloid abt d latest cheezums abt icans and xavierians..will it get sold out or not? hw much do u think will it cost? who r d frequent subscribers? haha fact or not: people are naturally chismoso/chismosa who's more into d cheezums: guys or girls? or rather..icans or xaverians? 1 comment|post comment

weird yet true [22 Apr 2005|11:05pm] [ mood | impressed ] You hate not to love but you hate to fall in love. You can't help but sigh when you see to people kiss in the park and all. You don't like to go over board and believe in a small steady relationship at first so that it can grow. You also like to think that you can have that kiss that puts you into a portal and you can't get back until he/she stops. How much do you love? GOOD PICS brought to you by Quizilla post comment

new look [22 Apr 2005|10:30pm] [ mood | blah ] getin kinda vain lately and unusually into books..wat a weird match!? haha getn bored at home cz everything still looks d same. wanted 2 hav a parlor day and curl my hair get a foot spa 2gdr wid pedi..and mani nrn hahaha i just want to relax..havn dis "livin d lyf" kinda thing lately..i jst want to make d most out of wats present cz wen im in2 d clge stage..bka d ko na 2 maexperience..breaks wld b shorter and surely things wld nvr b d same cz aftr clge workin na..fudgeroos!! dnt think m redy for dat anywaysss yko tong topic na toh..i feel lyk m rly getn old na hahaha had ds weird dreams lately.. dream1: i was in ds prng fair thing pero it was held in ghils dw tps my sister was teasing me kay *justin tps bgla b nmn inanounce na prng "hey sayang nmn c justin and stef..d ngka2luyan" den sudenly i felt lyk d world stopped and everyone was lukin at me na dream2: i was bein chasd by sm1 dw..i dnt knw hu he is bsta he's gna kil me rw den sudenly i thot na prng if its tym 2 die den its tym 2 die so bhla na but i cld still feel na i was runin and runin den bgla i woke up na out of fear dream3: i was arguing wid justin dw 2 d maxxxx!! as in super tlg na i was telin him na prng y did u jst leave me hangin ng bglaan lng tas he was sayin na prng he didnt know nmn na i lyk him kc s start dw it shows na i wasnt inerested at ol bla bla bla tas i sed na prng wt do u expect i was wid sm1 pa dt tym tas he stil kept on insisting na folt ko dw na hnd ko nclear things up tas sb ko rw na prng sya yn hnd ngclear up ng things cz dpt in d first place hnd na nya sna cnab s sister ko na he lyks me kc lalo lng ngwrsen lht cz jst wen i was lykn him na tlga bcz of wt he sed bgla sya nawla na na prng bula tas bgla mern na sya bgong girl i min..wtf! bsta yn i was really really mad tas i woke up na..i didnt know na wt he was supose 2 say after bsta i rly got madddddd >:( so far yn yng mge stuf na nremember ko haha weird yet...bsta weird! d ko na nga sya iniicp at ol e i min lyk im hundred percent xur i dnt lyk him na cz i know na we dnt match at ol kya nga s start i ddnt lyk him kc nmn hes lyk super talino nd im lyk super average ish lng tas hes super tyaga nd im lyk super tamad tas hes super gud boy type nd im lyk bad girl type hnd nmn yn bad tlga bsta i knw lng na ders sum stuf dt i do na he dsnt do or dsnt wna do hay nku bsta hnd tlg! as in pra kaming.... leche flan and manggang hilaw or lyk bagoong at bibingka or pwd rn ampalaya at chocol8 hahahahaha weird! bsta weirdddd hnd tlga bgy! yn only thing na mgcoconect yta smin is..wla tlga! maputi sya maitim ako..mjo smol eyes nya tas myn is mjo malaki..str8 hair nya tas myn is wavy..wla wla tlga! hopelessssss! hahaha post comment

Goddess of Night and Regret [22 Apr 2005|11:26am] [ mood | awake ] The Goddess of Night and Regret. You are a perfect confidante. Always understanding and solicitous, you could be a queen and you are exceptionally honest. You are an intelligent beauty. Which gorgeous goddess are you? For girls! (breath taking pics!) brought to you by Quizilla post comment

im a toad!!!! haha [22 Apr 2005|11:19am] [ mood | energetic ] You are a Toad croak! Meaning you are a fairly normal person! You are mostly a happy person, getting on with your life with only a few croaks and moans! You are also a practical person and probably quite a hard worker. You enjoy the simple things in life like the company of your friends, going shopping or to the cinema, reading a good book and being with your family or loved one. Your good points are that you are even tempered, fairly happy go lucky and a good friend to have around! Your bad points are that you sometimes lack the drive to succeed, being happy with what you already have. Which really, isn't such a bad point at all! Mostly content with your life, you are a happy, well-rounded person! Are you a Princess, Enchantress, Faerie, Mermaid or Toad? (with pictures!) brought to you by Quizilla post comment

oh shyeeetttt! no thanks haha [22 Apr 2005|11:11am] [ mood | surprised ] Your Husband Generator by Lady_Galadriel Name Your Husband Is You Met mile high club You Have 5 children You Live greece In a stable You And Your Partner Are Best Known For your constant rude outbursts Quiz created with MemeGen! post comment

rrrryyyytttttt... [22 Apr 2005|10:59am] [ mood | okay ] Are you hott? by evildj23 First Name Age Guy or Gal Your hottness is 9...a gift from god.... Quiz created with MemeGen! post comment

enough abt love [21 Apr 2005|07:09pm] [ mood | okay ] i just noticed that almost everything i post here always has something to do with love..weird yet thats my lyf.. a hopelessly romantic psycho haha anyways i havent left the house since monday and surprisingly i dont feel bored..my eyes still hurt and i still look like sally. hopefully the pain has a prize in the end haha im missing my friends ryt now..havent talked to them yet and havent seen them since tuesday. i wonder what theyre doin in tgaytay ryt now? maybe eatin dinner? hangin out with the guys? or maybe chismis tok? or talkin abt me? what are they sayin kya? hahaha anyways not paranoid nmn e.. i know nmn na i have gud set of friends and hopefully r friendship wld last till we're all old and gurangs with all r apo na tas we'll all remenisce abt stuf we did when we were young..or mybe r bloopers esp in tgyty and bora haha shux d third week of april is abt to end na and by next wik..may na! ang fast..lapit na rn school..shyet but o wel dats lyf..one way or another i really am goin bak to school anyway..havent had my colege shopin yet but hopefuly id be able to do it by the 2nd wik of may. i wonder how colge lyf would be lyk? will i be surrounded wid gud friends? or the BI type? or maybe im d BI hahaha w8 just to clear things.. bi as in bad influence not bi as in bi sexual hahaha anyways goin back..im really knda curious hw id luk lyk in clge. wil i be an outcast or popular? which i really doubt or be someone wid lots of friends but no friend friend tlg? or will i just hav little friends lng? hmm.. hay dont wna think na nga..i mind wil just go on and on and id end up just typin and typin my thoughts agen haha so i gez dis is it..toodles! post comment

definition of love from a four year old kid [21 Apr 2005|06:45pm] [ mood | weird ] When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth." Billy - age 4 isnt it amazing how kids appear to be so innocent yet they could even know more than we do? or could their innocence make them smarter and wiser than us? as time passes by and our age adds up each year..do we really become smarter or could are knowledge be just an illusion which makes us appear to be smarter than them. when i think about it, if i were to deifne love..i dont think id be able to put into wrds hw to describe it in a way that it can touch a person's heart just like how this kid has touched mine. here is another one.. The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife. Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there. When his Mother asked what he had said to the neighbor, the little boy said, "Nothing, I just helped him cry" "when you say nothing at all..." this song makes sense afterall..maybe it's true that when you found the person you can be with for like the whole day or even more without saying anything and it doesnt feel awkward at all..maybe he might be the one. i havent experieced this feeling but i gez d closest i had was wen i was in bora sleepin in the sand beneath all the stars. i dont know how i ended up with the person i was with that tym but i sure know that when i was sleepin..i felt safe. i dont knw if it was becuz of the alcohol or the the meds i took but there was something in me that felt happy and secured which is really really reallyyyyy weird becuz i dnt even lyk d guy and he sure dsnt lyk me either..feelins mutual haha but i dont know it just happend. whats even weirder is that everytym i reminisce abt bora..this whole scenario pops out. i couldnt even remember what i told him or if i did tell him something but i dont knw..i just couldnt remember anything at all except the feelin i had that time.. MAYBE i thought he was lyk my pillow or maybe my crush? or i dnt know bsta i dont wna think anymore cuz i really cnt remember anything.. how sad but ironically it makes me smile haha weird weird weird.. haha post comment

same ground [21 Apr 2005|06:41pm] [ mood | indescribable ] My love, Its been a long time since i cried and left you out of the blue. Its hard leaving you that way when I never wanted to. Self-denial is a game Its strange i never would've wanted if until there was you. Because i have learned that love is beyond what human can imagine, the more it clears the more i have to let you go. CHORUS: that's why i don't understand is why im feeling so bad now when i know it was my idea. i could've just denied the truth and lied. but why am i the only one standing stranded on the same ground? My love, Its been a long time since i cried and left you out of the blue. Its hard leaving you that way when I never wanted to. Self-denial is a game Its strange i never would've wanted if until there was you. Because i have learned that love is a word gets thrown a little bit too much. the best excuse to fill the infinite abyss i have never have to if all else fail If all else fail, would you be there to love me? If all else fail, would you be brave to see right through me? post comment

WANTED : punk-rocker [20 Apr 2005|05:44pm] [ mood | shocked ] your perfect guy is a punk-rocker, most likely in a band. He's got awsome talents at music, and he must have strong feelings for you, cuz guys like that are usually shy. nice catch! Who's your perfect guy? brought to you by Quizilla hm..i wonder if this is acur8 so myb i should meet one haha post comment

alcohol..sometimes it just solves everything [20 Apr 2005|05:33pm] [ mood | giddy ] Cocktail ?? Which Alcoholic Drink Are You ?? brought to you by Quizilla post comment

drama..drama..drama [20 Apr 2005|05:27pm] [ mood | discontent ] You are Drama. You are extroverted and like to show off, but can be very subtle and intelligent when you want. As an expert at story-telling, you love attention and have developed the skill of keeping it. You get along well with Literature and Film. What form of art are you? brought to you by Quizilla post comment

shisha..shisha..shisha [20 Apr 2005|05:02pm] shisha the best invention ever!! reasons to like it: 1)it's good smoke..i mean better than cigarettes 2)it's very relaxing 3)i dont know how to explain it but it really really really feels good takin it especially when there's a lil alcohol and ice in it which is better to smoke? shisha or cigarettes? post comment

do you think this is true? [20 Apr 2005|05:00pm] The term Soul Mates means many things. These are soul that you have experienced with in past, paralle or future lifetimes. They can also be aspects of your soul experiencing at this time in another body. We are all have multidimensional beings - your soul having experiences, in many realities, at the same time. As we all evolve from the same source of consciousness creation - we could say that we are all souls mates in a manner of speaking. Soul mates can have various types of relationships, which do not always include romantic love. We tend to think of our soul mate as The One who is there for us and to make us feel complete. Souls often come together to work out issues or play reverse roles than that which they are experiencing elsewhere. Anyone who is in your biological family - or adopted family - or pseudo-family - is a soul mate to you. You feel closer to certain souls, because you have attracted them into your life as they are on the same frequency as you or because you want to work out issues with them. Karma is the responsibilites shared between soul mates.. Often souls mates come together to bring another soul into the physical realms. A man and woman mate and produce one or more children - the karma thus completed ends. The couple separates and share whatever karma is linked to the child. Sometimes the karma in family is between mother and child - so the child remains exclusively with the mother. Sometimes the karma is with the father and the mother leaves or deceases. Sometimes it is with both parents or with a sibling who has entered the game before or after you. Soul mates can be close friends, co-workers, a teacher, anyone who influences your life one way or another. They play the emotional - spiritual - physical - and mental - games of third dimension with you. Did you know that you often attract people into your life who look as you do in parallel or past lives? For example - you are a man seeking a female partner. You will seek out someone who looks and acts if you were a woman - like a mirror image. Your ideal partner is who you are in that physical body! We are always seeking ways to experience ourselves. Men often seek the goddess when searching for a mate - one who looks like the priestess - slim body, long flowing hair purity of soul - beauty and gentleness of creation that speaks to their soul of union with the female creational force. It is SHE who brings loves, guidance, compassion and reunion of your twin soul aspects. post comment

manghoholaaahhhh [20 Apr 2005|01:57pm] [ mood | confused ] have you... ever wanted to go to a fortune teller so much that once ur there..you wished you didnt go to her in the first place? evr wanted to know the answers to your questions but once you knew dem..you wish dey were left unanswered? ever known who your soul mate is in just a blink of an eye? I don’t know whether to believe her or not but there was something in her that made me feel that some of the things she said are true. First she said that I was someone who has a very light aura which makes me seem to be very friendly and approachable.. for me this may be true but not all the time cuz sometimes I give this impression that I am someone mataray, maarte and very picky when I comes to friends. Second she told me that she sees medals but this may change when I lose my focus.. for me, it is good to hear this cuz I do want to have achievements and sometimes I feel I just need to have the drive and a little push so that I may be able to work hard for this. Third, since the little spy was there, I couldn’t fully express the questions in my head especially when it is abt *Michael but o well I guess she sensed it anyway cuz she adviced me to express my feelings to nature which is kinda wird but relaxing haha so nways of cors d nyt didn’t pass without me asking her abt d guy I liked so wen I went to my sister who was the last one to be with the manghuhula, gud thing she was almost done so I wrote the name of the guy in a piece of paper and shwd it to her. I wasn’t expectin a happily ever aftr kinda thing but all I ask was to have that sense of security that what I have with that guy is over and is just an infatuation. To my horror, I ddnt expect she’d say that he was my soulmate. I mean im only 18 with no lovelyf at the moment bcz of a past I cant erase finally knows who my soulmate is. Hw wird cn it get? Whats worse is that this guy has a girlfriend..NICE goin ryt? But o wel she told me that it dsnt mean hes my soulmate im gna end up with him nway so maybe its part of the destiny thing or mybe fate that he really has to have a girlfriend ryt now BUT y cnt this feelin just stop! I mean sometimes when I think im already over him.. subconsciously im really not over him. Hay…hw hard cn lyf b don’t u think? If you like someone..he likes someone else but if you find the person who really likes you its hard for you to like him back or if you do start to try nd like him back..y cnt the person u like try to like you back? Does it make any sense? Hmph! This is starting to be wird. Really wird. I wonder how my college life wld be lyk? But one thing is for sure..its a gud thing I wouldn’t enter the same college as Michael cuz if dat happens..it would just make things worse. Ok going back to hula.. sometimes I wish I never knew he was my soulmate cuz now that I know..i feel that I’m gettn to be more attached to him which is not a gud thing..=( hopefully this whole not talking to him anymore kinda scene would last longer so that its easier for me to let go.. post comment

love is blind [19 Apr 2005|01:25pm] [ mood | curious ] just a question.. is it better to be blind when it comes to love OR is it better to be someone whos not blind but ends up to be very choosy? is it better to have loved and be hurt rather than not experincing love at all? post comment

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